Where I drive nails into my head and say 'AAAAAUUUURRRRRGH'

I hate migraines. I do I do I do. I was feeling peachy a few hours ago, and the minute we have a pressure change, my head starts pounding. I've consumed caffeine as well as pain meds, and it's not working. So yes, I'm going to complain and whine. I listen to other people (okay, kids) whine all day. I'm entitled.

I went to aerobics today for the first time in about 3 weeks. I normally get very winded after the first few routines, but found that I didn't get out of breath like I usually do. Hmmm. And this was while doing mostly high impact. Hmmmm. AND, when we did weights focusing on tricep kickbacks, I kept waiting for 'the burn' to kick in and it never did. Other women were groaning and complaining (as I usually am) but found it to be easy... a little boring, even. Maybe it's time to up the weights I bring to class! One of my friends there asked how I could be in such good shape since I haven't been coming to class. What do you think my reply was? Kettlebells! While my weight is still not where I want it to be (and that is 100% my fault. I fluctuate between not eating anything for a week, and then bingeing on nothing but crap. I know, it's bad. I know, I am the ONLY one who can control it.) I can definitely see subtle changes in my physique. There is tone to my arms and particularly my upper back that was not there before. When I got dresses for aerobics, i noticed that my muffintop is slightly less... muffiny. Puffy. Fluffy. I am lacking in the flub department ever so slightly.

Of course, I berate myself when I think about how much better I'd look if I could just get my eating in line, but I can't seem to get my attitude in gear. I have been especially bad with what I call 'sleep eating'. My younger 2 are still up a lot at night. Bryan and I generally have to tag team it with them. There's a lot of musical beds going on - last night I went from our bed, to Addie's, then tried to go back to ours, only to find Henry in it, then went to Henry's bed. Somewhere during this, I vaguely remember coming downstairs and eating a chocolate mint brownie. (Yes. I baked again. I was experimenting again. I KNOW!) Seriously, I am not totally awake when I do this. I am crazy.

I think it's going to be xanex and an early bedttime tonight. Because tomorrow is Wednesday! My favorite day of the week! A kid-less day! Yee haw!